MuSiC oF mY LiFe

~~Saturday, November 17, 2007~~

Sighing is a temporal release of stress but too much ain't gonna help right? In any case...HAIZZZZZZZ. Alright, virtually shld feel better.

Went for Ah kuang's bday chalet last wkend. Too bad i only stayed for a night. Wanted to mix ard with them longer but time really did nt allow me to do so. Anyway, went hm to drop my stuffs on fri and set off for his chalet with Jer at 7+. We thought we were late, cos the msged said meet at 4. But when we arrived at ard 8+ 9, there were only 4pple. hAHA..Ate pizza n kfc for dinner with them. Wootx. Its been eons since i touched these food sia. hAHA..then was entertained by the extremely small tv till everyone came. They didnt call too many, but yeah, small grps r cosier. Hek. Then cos it was fishy n doggy's bday too, so we celebrated 3 in 1 bday. hAHA..As NPS USUAL practice, they started smashing BOXES of whipped cream, water bombs all prepared in advance alr sia. I was like avoiding and avoiding but still tio smashed. =.= Then when i helped them WASH n MOP the floor, the guys FLOOD back into the chalet and throw MORE whip cream. Some even spread whip cream over my neck and all. Eeee. Wah raoz, i help u all clean up still kena. %#%& Haha...What's more exciting is tt outside our chalet got a fire hydrant, and the guys went to take it and spray sia..suddenly reminding me of the paris hilton car washing commercial. hAH...Finally, cleared up and washed up and it was like ard 1+am liao. hAHA..Was further entertained by some dice gambling game till 2+ den watch pple play video game while the peeps grp by grp left to play cards..walk walk..etc. hAHA..end up slacking reading while watching jer play some silly video games till ard 6am then crawl to the bed to nap awhile. Too bad, next day noon left le. Went to White sands eat den go hm do work le. sadden. WIll post pics after i got them.

The preceding days after the chalet were horrendous. Really horrendous. Was trying to figure out my maths notes...and became crazy the next few days. Finally wed came and went for my maths finals. Buang. Stupid tutor dun usually mark n allow error-brought-forward. If she dun be lenient, den...HAHAHA alr. By the time exam finsh alr like evening liao lar. Then have to chiong forensics n a whole damn book of psychology. Was like so helpless lar. Kaoz. Went to read thru the back chaps of psychology 1st and my progress was like snail la. By 1am, i only read thru a few chaps and i HAVEn touched forensics. Was practically going mad lar. and i was darn tired. Dunked red bull and all BUt lousy system just dun register. Finally gave up at ard 2am and went to browse thru forensics for like 45min (do u ever study a sub for 45min and go take FINAL exam?!?!) then went to plonk on bed and TRY to get to bed WITH guilt.

Next day went for psychology exam 1st and it was bloooody long and tedious lar! NEVER in my exams i get sooo exhausted. Total of 90+ questions. Every silly damn qn was like a PARAGRAPH of words long. even multiple choice. And its not easy sentences. Every sentence have to read damn long to comprehend then do. I did like 30qn like tt my eyes teared liao. hAha..Then i read some qn, i totally...siao liao. hAHA...Arhhh. Oh, and i was MOLTIVATED to finish the exam ONLY becos i was VVVV hungry. Then after the exam got 1hour like tt to forensics. Went to eat instead of studying. Then forensics started at 5pm, which was my most vulnerable time, cos i get v slpy easily. Then as expected, i went in, took the test for like 45min, i couldn't take it, i fell aslp for like a few mins!!!! ARgh! hAha..Then my worst horror during 1 silly case scenario where we are supposed to ans some qns after "investigation" and reconstruct the scene etc (which is worth HALF of the WHOLE paper's marks), i did some stunts. Some killer event which was supposed to be normal, i just cant think LOGICALLY and i ended up writing tt the killer murdered the victim with a DURIAN!!! FAINTX...tt's like the last thing ANYONE will write for their FINAL EXAM LAR! How could i gamble my marks away with such..such..CREATIVE answers sia. Tak boleh tahan. Bleah...

Nvrtheless, the whole wk really tooK my soul away, so went to meet a few peeps go eat dinner and chill. After tt felt abit more human again, but was damn shag. Slpt in front of my comp while i waited for some stuff to load. +.=. HAHa..my home the bed is still the best, esp when i m tired...slpt all the way from 3am till 11am today sia. haha..today also slacked quite alot. tml gg for a bday party. Think i will just drop by awhile den run le..TOO much to study for next few exams...cant perform stunt liao sia. Haha..Maybe after bday celebration go home revise again..Hope i dun fall into the temptation of my bed. Ok...i go watch some tv den zzz liao. Yawns.

"looking forward...and forward...and forward...."

2:09 AM

~~Friday, November 09, 2007~~

Its post-deepavali pple. Do u still feel the LIGHTS? Ha. Alrite, gonna blog earlier this wk cos i'm gonna be quite busy during the wkends. This week i can say is 匆匆忙忙的过(past v hastily). Have been mugging quite abit for my Physics midterm exams for 3/4 of the week since my paper was on wed. Can just say physics is nt ez, nt too hard, but v tricky. And the tons of formulas to remb is simply overwhelming. Then i was so hyper the nite b4 tt i only slept at 2+am and my paper was 8.30am next day...and i only 惊醒 (woke in fright) at like 7.50am lar. hAha..

After tt paper went to collect my biochem midterm exam paper..I passed nicely! yeah!!! Finally...its the only paper tt i was ever not worried abt. Duno its a good thing or a bad thing. Cos y? Its biology tt i wasn't fretting abt..and i m in Chemistry course. Seems like biology is more of my forte. Yyyy. I seem to always make some decisions tt i noe would be good n wouldn't harm BUt yet make me miserable. hAHah. Nvm, 船到桥头自然直（meaning the route will straighten itself by the end of the course). After i reached hostel n checked mail..realized physics exam ans reveal le. went to check...couldn't remb some ans..BUt i think i just passed! haha. Hopefully man..hopefully. But yea. Dun wanna think abt it le. haha..Slacked for 1 day..watched ratatouille and high sch musical in btw hostel hours to relieve stress. Even went to JP, IMM, JE to find some stuffs! haha.

Ehz, but now scared liao. Cos next wk start of final exams. NExt wed maths paper, thur 2 papers, forensics and psychology. Xiong. Hoping for miracles. BUT its always like tt! So many temptations like devil trying to lure u into his trap! So many gatherings and all! I missed sooo many outings and all. And today evening i gonna go frenz chalet for 1 nite. Cos celebrating a few peeps bday. I love celebrating u all the bday..But argh! my grades! =.= haiz..cos i was booked like almost a mth in advance? So yeah...Hope i can reach hm early on sat den can cont my revision man. hAha..CAnt wait for exams to end yet get panic attacks when the tots of exams are coming...1st time fret exam till like tt. hAHa.

Its mugging time pple. Not reminding myself the fact tt mugging started looong time ago But mooo power is gonna push myself even more! Grrr! Ha..The hols are wad is pushing me forward.

OK lar, i go back mug 1st. Got class later and..i wanna mug abit be4 gg chalet later. tata~~

"the strength work as one."

10:03 AM

~~Saturday, November 03, 2007~~

yeah, i m back. Midterm is still going on and i just ended my Biochem paper last thur. Not fabulous but at least i noe i wun flunk this paper. Didn't really had the time to prepare for it becos quite a number of things had to b done last wk. Mon had a GE meeting for the last time be4 exams, tue and wed had guitar pract. Was reluctant to go bUt well, had to force myself to go since its the last pract be4 stopping for exams. Silly instructor picked on me again. Dun understand y also. Perhaps i m nt a perfect player there..i nv pract his scores only during pract so i tend to make mistakes..But still, its not fair to do tt in front of everyone rite...pin point someone till it really throws ur face. I m nt the only one who got such treatment..but usually the few of us tt i noe. Poor us.

So far, i made a decision n unless there is a v v v v good reason for me to NOT do so, i will execute my plan. hAhA. The plan is to quit the club after my 1 yr term of committe role and after staging the concert. Will try to make the concert a success and organise my stuff and leave. If i can still stay in hostel for the next yr, i might consider due to the convenience sake of it. But there are still a few reasons y i prefer not to continue my stay tho'. So it depends. Anyway, i dun think i m that hard-up to stay in hall. So, quitting the club is nt gonna affect my decision. I dun need the extra "responsibilities" to make my Uni life exciting.

Oh, But on one note, there are a few guitarists whom i felt are really really talented pple. They can really make u watch them play the guitar endlessly. U hum a song, they play it immediately with improvisations of their own. Jazz, tango, folk, classical, pop, bring it on, u ask for it, u get it. Wow..this is one thing i felt tt is the strong pt. of the pple there..talent pple can be found. Oh OH, and not forgeting to mention...i manage to catch the "live performance" of one of my favourite music pieces "Czardus" played by a prodigy there. hAHa..The piece made my day la. Of cos i've heard many other excellent pieces..and it made me smile a lil.

As usual, every time when its nearing exams or tests, 1 thing tt i'll improve or "master" back, is my guitar skills. Cos it will always be ard me. It is my destress tool, which results in more painful fingers. Haha...Hope my roomie doesn't mind. Come to think of it, i think i've been pretty "noisy" this whole wk. My body has been down with running nose+cough+sore throat+migraines. So, i have been blowing my nose and coughing through days from last wk till now. I think i used up a box of tissue +ard 6packet tissues a day. Germs floating ard my room everywhere. eh...abit ashamed abt tt..sorry ah roomie, hAHa..

Suddenly remembered a short conversation tt i had with roomie which i tot was pretty funny. It started when we were walking back to hostel from after lunch with a remaining curry puff and we were talking sth abt passing this curry to some eye-candies. So...

R : U pass to XXX and share it lar.

Me: Dun want lar, ur curry puff, u pass to whoever lar.

R : Nvm, u take it. *swings curry puff here n there*

Me: Aiya, u just bite the curry in the middle and pass the curry puff to XXX lar. Then tell him, " See, no matter where u start biting, u will still meet me in the middle". So sweet right?

R :...?!?!? OMG..i cant believe u said tt....*faintx everywhere*

Hahaha..wah raoz..i cant believe i can think of such phrases for my roomie la. She definitely gives me inspiration man.

Anyway, i think i quite suay for the past 2 days. Cheated feelings twice. Once after pract when a club member offered to send a few of my frens and i back to hostel. I din noe this person so i declined but my fren wanted the ride so ask me to tag along so i hesitantly followed. My hall could be the 1st few tt he wud past by but he went by another route so i became the last. In the car, i was jus blabbering abt some saxophone thing when he said he got a sax and asked if i wanna see it. I shaked my head and didn't reply after. The next thing i noe is tt he turned into a foreign carpark and stopped the car in front of a sch building lab and say we can go in n view his sax! I was darn shock la, so i just stun n follow him. He tooK the sax out..explained as he fixed it and started blowing some exercise pieces. I looKed totally disinterested within a few min cos i became quite pissed. I was sick n i had my mid term the next day (which was y i agreed on the ride back which i assume would be faster) and then i was brought there. He even asked me to try blowing his sax as he taught briefly which i would have been interested IF things WERE not DONE that way. So i rejected all offers and just stared at him. Later he showed me a video which i was pretty amused but everything was so wrong that my mood just hit my head and i walked off saying tt i was leaving and he finally packed up n got me back. Diao. ridiculous. I dun even noe him..nt even his name. Irritating. I wun mention the next incident (not the guy anymore) but its somewhat along the same cause. Got cheated into gg somewhere else n wasted all my time n time to rest when i planned to reach hm asap from hostel yest.

Yeah..so i m guillible or just silly. Haha...who noes. anyway the matter's over, i dun care alr.

Next wk...alot to think abt...physics midterm..some external events to plan my time abt cos the wk after is the start of my finals...give me my red-bull-coffee-expresso concoction leh...

"live dreams tgr."

7:35 PM